Love and Motherhood
I’ve Been a Mom for 15 Years and I Still Struggle with Imposter Syndrome
Probably more now than ever!
Truth be told, I have no idea what I’m doing.
But that has never stopped me before.
I have fumbled my way through life with more idiotic confidence than I care to understand.
Having the audacity to think that you can march your unqualified butt straight into a role and figure it out as you go takes a special kind of ignorance.
I was 20 when I found out I was pregnant for the first time.
I was never afraid.
When the nurses placed her on my chest and I marveled at what I had just accomplished, I innocently asked them, “What do I do now?”
I had no idea what I was doing, but I got really good at acting as though I did.
I’ve made my fair share of mistakes, no doubt, but my kids are actually pretty good people.
However, I still don’t feel confident in my mothering abilities.
I still have panic attacks in the middle of the night for fear I am going to mess up beyond repair.
